politics or selfie

I saw a post in Facebook telling everyone to remove him from their friends list if they keep on posting their political rants, as he is tired and sick of it. I kinda feel offended because I often share my thoughts regarding our country's political climate. Then I ask myself, which is more relevant: political point of views or  the daily egocentric selfies?

Like, everyone's using the social media to showcase their daily activities, outfit of the day, food from a posh restaurant (sometimes just house food) and whatever drama they have. I respect their posts. And I think they should respect mine as well.

I don't know whats wrong with voicing out your opinions on current social issues, but I guess people are just tired of negativity and that their workplace should be enough for that. I just hope that once in a while, they could show concern on what's really happening around them as much as the people who gave concern on their half naked pictures in the internet.

Should I Go "Commercial"?

My blog doesn't have much views. It feels useless doing this. Well, I really don't care as I only use this blog as my sort of "electronic drama diary".
Now I ask myself, is it essential for a blog to be viewed or read by a lot of people? What's a blog for when you can post articles or ideas through Facebook and other quick access media platforms?
Nowadays, there are a lot of people who are making a lot of money by using their blogs for advertisement and marketing purposes. Because of this, blogs became a medium for a person to show how a company or brand take over his life. One posts an article about a certain product and tells good stuff about it, then brags about how good his life is with this product. Bloggers are happy because these products are given to them for free, and most of the time with cash. I'm beginning to envy them.
I'm not closing my doors to this idea, but for now I'll stick to how my blog is doing.

Telling Others That He's Going To Die

So he posted on his social media account that he's sort of about to take his life. And common friends started sending me messages, showing concerns, and asking me if he's fine. I really don't know how to respond to them as I am having mixed emotions. I am happy, angry, and confused.
He sent me a message, saying that he's thankful for everything that I've done for him until we meet again. I didn't respond. Instead, I posted my thoughts on the reasons for depression, and these are: hunger, lack of exercise, lack of prayers, and lack of activities. I also included in my post a plead to leave us (his friends) alone with his drama, telling him that we too have problems in life and that he should go to a doctor or to church.
I am not an expert to give him an advice and I really don't want to do anything about his death (if it happens). I don't want to look like I don't care, but knowing him, it feels like he just needs some attention. I am not taking part on his agenda.
There are a lot of less fortunate people who have more reasons to be depressed. They don't have social media accounts to show their drama to the world. They have good reasons to live despite of whatever bad situations they are encountering.
The only thing I can do is to pray for him and to all depressed people.

Sunday is No Work Day

I know that there are people who works on a Sunday, but most people don't. And most people don't know that.
Why would a client send me a message,on a Sunday, through facebook informing me that there will be a meeting tomorrow? Can he just give me a break?!!! As far as I know i don't directly report to him. And I am not paid to respond, or should I say I don't work on a weekend. I don't even remember signing a contract with him. He's a company client who signed a contract with my boss. Therefore he should talk to my boss instead of talking to me. It's not my fault that he badly needs income. It's not my fault that he's having a hard time doing he's promotions for his events. And it's not my fault that he doesn't have a life.
Don't get me wrong. I wanted to help and work for his business, but weekends are special to me. It's "me" time.

A Bad Surprise

I was expecting that sooner or later I'll get fired and it wouldn't be a surprise. It's just a gut feel that I will be ditched even if I know I haven't done anything wrong. And it happened.
The real surprise is that my name was used to cover up someone else's shit and i got fired. I was very mad. And furious. And mad. And angry. And frustrated. And mad. And I felt very tired and helpless. I got ditched without a fight. That "someone" whom I thought can be trusted, made a lie about me without any real proof and told her boss about it. I tried fighting back by sending messages to the real boss. But it was useless.Then I stopped. What am I fighting for? Really?
I was angry because all the things that I worked for was gone in a very awful manner. I was angry because I feel small and helpless. I was not prepared for this. I want to move on and leave it behind. I'm still mad. I have no choice but to move on. So help me God.

Not to Outshine Someone

I'm kinda stubborn. Actually, I'm very stubborn . I try not to follow, and do things my way. I also try to impose my ideas because I believe that mine is better than everyone else. With this, I became arrogant. And then I came to a point where in I realized that arrogance is tiring, and my efforts really has no positive outcome. I stopped talking.
I don't know what's with me because I feel bad not putting my ideas to the table. I feel like I stopped being kind and I stopped helping them. This is a sacrifice I have to bear. Anyway, it is a good thing for me because  I'm really not gaining anything from them. So, I will not try to outshine them because they might become better than me and that they might think that I'm a threat. And they might ditch me.
I will not be ditched. Not yet.

Praying for Bad Things to Happen

A friend asked me to help them and I tried giving help in their company activity. But as time goes by, things are not turning out as I wanted it to be. So i decided to stop helping. At first, I felt happy because it was less stress. But now I feel guilty leaving them behind and seeing them sort of progress since the day I came into the picture. And every time I hear about the activity, I feel envy. I know that I am one of the reasons on why they are working now not like before. I also feel like they are looking at me as if I am the devil who left them behind and they are going to prove to me that they can do it without my help. I really feel bad and sorry for myself.
Oh my God! I tried helping them in a way that they should be helped. I don't want to be a bad person but right now I'm sort of praying that they fail. I know how they operate and manage things, and they are really not good at it. I want them to fail so that they could see what's wrong without me telling them. I think it's the best thing to wish for.
I will just observe and contain myself.
God forgive me. Help me out as well.